Just a simple request.....

Lord,please let this be our month!!

Well.......

We got a negative, so on to November. I am not discouraged and I am not sad. Of course I wish this would have worked the first time, but I know it will work soon. So in about two short weeks we try again.....will it be my birthday surprise? I hope so.

INpatiently waiting for our BFP!

The suspense is killing me, so much more so than when it was me, my failing body, my disappointing uterus! This is the time that there really are hopes and possibilities. Even through all the waiting, my stress and anxiety about baby making is over. I have found my salvation, the "answer" I have been praying for these some 15 years. I have an inner peace that I have not had for so long. I have my surromom to thank, she is my angel.

For many years now, I have lost all faith, I had given up on prayer and believing that there was a higher being that would make it all better. After all, I had prayed for years and never got an answer, until now. I feel that my name must finally have reached the top of the list and all the stress, hurt, and anxiety has left me in one fell swoop. I have no doubts that next year I am gonna be a mommy, maybe not this month, but it is going to happen soon. That is fantastic.

Everything in my life has changed. Brett and I are so happy. We are laughing and enjoying each other the time we have left as a single couple. This must be how it feels for someone with no difficulties achieving a pregnancy. I love my surromom for letting me live this vicariously through her, she is amazing! What kind of special heart must she have, to do something so selfless? One that not many have on this earth. The heart of an angel. Giving the gift of life. Giving me my baby.

Over The Top Award!

Thanks to Jessica over at The Life of Mommy for giving me my FIRST award!

This is the Over the Top Award:
The Rules of this award are:

Answer the questions below with only ONE word:
Thank the person that gave you this award OVER AND OVER AND OVER again (thanks Jessica!!!):
Then pick your 6 favorite bloggers.

Here are the answers:

1. Where is your phone:
purse

2.Your Hair:
down

3. Your Mother:
special

4. Your Father:
missed

5. Favorite Food:
sushi

6.Your dream last night:
none

7. Favorite Drinks:
coke

8. Your dreams:
unfolding

9. What room are you in?
bedroom

10. Your Hobby:
art

11.Your Fear:
dependency

12.Where do you want to be in six years?
mommy

13.Where were you last night?
bed

14. Something you are not
timid

15. Muffins:
blueberry

16. Wish List Item:
baby

17.Where did you grow up?
WV

18. Last thing you did?
blogged

19.What are you wearing?
jammies

20. Your TV:
noise

21. your Pets?
Farm

22.Your friends:
ggrrrreeeaaaattttt

23. Your life:
amazing

24.Your Mood:
elated

25. Missing Someone:
Cory

26.Vehicle:
Truck

27.Something you are not wearing:
socks

28. Your favorite store:
Buckle

29. Favorite Color:
Orange

30. When was the last time you laughed?
now

31. Last time you cried?
Tuesday

32.Your Best Friend?
hubby

33. One place you go over and over?
barn

34.One person that emails you?
Rachele

35. Favorite place to eat?
Habachi's


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When Two Becomes Three

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Infertile Myrtle

Officially in the 2ww!

We are now entering our 2ww. Our surrogate is wonderful and so sweet. We are alike in so many ways. I enjoyed meeting her and her family. We will test November 1st. I am so excited but I am going to try to stay busy with painting and working around the house so I don't drive myself nuts. If it doesn't work the first try we will try again in November. We are hoping for July 2010 babies!! Woo hoo!

Very Happy and Anxious!

I have never felt such anxiousness in my life. We have decided to go ahead with the insems on Columbus day when we meet up to do all the legal stuff. Soooo, my surro's cycle is falling perfectly when we were supposed to meet..is it fate? She started the femara this week and is almost finished. We will soon be in the 2ww. I am so excited my heart skips beats and I have butterflies in my stomach. This is the first time in years that I know I am going to have a baby. She is a proven surrogate and the procedure worked the first try on her last surrogacy. I am so happy to have met my real life angel. It is amazing what hope can do for one's spirits. Good luck to everyone on their journeys right now, and babdy dust to all!!

Day 3 in Club Med

Even though I am currently in the hospital, I have received absolutely the best news ever. We have contracted with a wonderful compassionate surrogate. She is beautiful both inside and out, she is a proven surrogate, and I have total faith in her and I know that by this time next year, I finally will be a mother. I am so excited about getting nursery stuff ready, painting and getting furniture. I am kinda in shock, but taking it all in. We are meeting Columbus day to go over specifics, but we definitely have a plan in place...and Brett and I are both so happy!! We will take pics and post them up here soon!!!Good luck to all!!