Friday, November 21, 2008
Feelings of Sadness
Isn't it funny how one person can say something to you that just ruins your day. Changes your outlook until you find a way to recooperate. People talk about things without having a clue. How can someone who is older and has children and grandchildren of their own think they have a clue about what you feel or are going through. I am so tired of these people telling me to accept what god has chosen for me. Would they accept it so easily? All I hear is how their children are their lives, then they blow my desire for them off like it is nothing. If they were in my shoes would they just have accepted it? I'm just so tired of people wanting me to give up, and I am tired of talking to them about it. I wish they would just stop asking me about how things are going. I know better than anyone how my body is a failure, how it lets me down everyday. I am making the best of it and I do not want to die. That is the furthest from my desires. However, we take risks everyday of our lives, sitting in a vehicle is probably one of the most dangerous things we do on a daily basis. There is no certainty in anything, not what the doctors say or even I will get pregnant if we are able to raise the money and try on me next year. I would just like some words of kindness and encouragement; of keeps those spirits up, keep your chin up, it will work out somehow, instead of accept what god has given you, I am so sick of that!!!