Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Just Walking In Zombie Land Taking It One Day At A Time!
As I sit here typing this and being so happy for all those I have met over the past year on our journeys for parenthood, I can't help but feel sorry for myself and the others I have been reading tonight that it still hasn't worked for. I just really don't understand why things work the way they do in this world and I probably never will. All I can do is try all I have to make it happen until there is no life left in me to try. If my child were here, would I not do the same? Do whatever ever it takes to give it whatever it needs. I am starting my etsy website but I must get a few more things made before I open it. I am also interviewing with a company on the 30th about working from home with only very infrequent office visits to protect me from all the bad buggies. My hubby is also pursuing a new career, so things are looking promising. Our last few nights at home, (with no plumbing, no walls, no doors, ect.), has been the best nights in months. It is like plugging a battery in to be recharged. Our hearts are being recharged with hope and happiness. I am on my 4th and hopefully last week on IV Vancomycin. It makes me very tired. The Merem doesn't bother me as bad it doesn't seem. I hope that tonight as all my friends and family, and all the ones who aren't yet are laying their heads down happy and content, recharged and ready for many more tomorrows.....good night everyone.